Ok, Here goes,

First and formost I would like to say that I am not angry At Missy. I'm actually angry at myself because I can't get my heart to believe we are only friends. Everytime I see her, I just remember how much it hurts that I screwed up that relationship.
Secondly, I don't think the girls respect me. I have the distinct impression that they think I'm a worthless stupid that isn't good for anything. They make a lot more fun of me than any of my other friends do. I don't know anything about movies, actors, tv shows, clothes, wedings, etc, but this is because of how I was brought up. I have a horrible memory that only remembers things in broken fragments of sound and image.
I believe that the only way to fix these problems is to respect myself and to gather up self confidence. Hence, my long term goals for the remainder of this year, is to become more social and to get a girl friend. Hopefully this will work as I believe and I will be able to be friends with Missy again.
I have posted this here in the hope that one of my friends reads this and understands the reasons for my actions from the fourth of July on.

Chris

P.S. I hope you enjoyed the movies the other day Missy

::In the darkness you must wait until someone rolls a 5 or 8::